Andrea Steffens - Executive Director and Founder

Andrea's Resume  

Personal Statement:

I have always loved stories, something I've traced back to my maternal grandmother who visited our family for a few months every year. She was basically bed-ridden -- I was the only child I knew whose grandmother had been hit by a train. 

And, I was her willing companion when she journeyed into memory and regaled me with near fairy tale stories of her life that reached back into the era of the Irish and English horse drawn carriage -- both sides of the family raised race and steeplechase horses. She had old sepia photos -- many on tin that showed her, unrecognizable to me then, in brocade ball gowns, standing next to a carriage or an elegant house. She was fierce that I know who my people were.  And so I learned the importance of story telling in developing identity and connection to tribe.  Human beings are, after all, herd animals which translates into being tribal.  I was hooked. My father also was keen on story telling about my ancestors, our Scottish family, my tribe, m y clan who like our Irish ancestors fought the good fight, fought for their freedom for centuries at great price -- there are I am certain toxic stress symptoms that I suspect our family carries. It all made sense as I learned about the intricacies of how the body responds to severe stress. Responses to trauma suppress or activate DNA -- transmission of trauma is as real physically as it is psychologically in attachment difficulties. So the legacy of toxic stress symptoms pass from generation to generation and one of the ways in which that sequence is interrupted is through telling the story -- in a quite specific way, a directed way -- one that is natural to human beings as listener and teller, a natural response to adverse experience. Talk about it.  Tell me. Tell me. Think of the times you have been cornered by someone who has had an accident, a loss, a tragedy.  She will tell the story over and over while you have thought or said eventually  " would you get over it already!"  But she doesn't and shouldn't.  Part of the healing of an accident, a loss a tragedy, a shocking event is that the story must be told and told and told until it stops quivering and lies relaxed and quiet. We know what to do with story -- we are wired for this. And this story demands an audience, a community, a patient deep listener. A Witness.  The real tragedy is when the story that wants to be told, isn't -- that the story lies silent quaking and trembling for an entire life. These are the stories we want.  


Over the years, I grew to love memoir, one person plays, autobiography  and yes, even confessional poetry.  I became a performance poet as I put the stories I knew and created into share-able form. To this day -- today even --  I continue to serve story.  I overhear them standing in lines for whatever reason -- groceries, tickets, entrance to football games, at the bank, waiting for dinner reservations, in Macy's checkout line.   Wherever I am, i hear them in loud conversations or whispered -- in restaurants, the subway, in the waiting room at the doctors office.  We are surrounded by stories -- just pay attention to your day. See how often you hear a story...about something, anything.  

As a child, I planned to raise horses and be a poet. Then, bam! My mother died when I was fourteen.  My life changed and it would take many years before I realized the trauma that I carried with me from the occasion of her death.  It wasn't until I began my work with sexually abused women in California and with Vietnam vets in Alaska  that I recognized  many of the  symptoms that so disrupted their lives were mine. I recognized PTS in people recently out of prison, in inner city people and Native American friends. Events or conditions do not have to be life threatening to create toxic stress. You don't have to be a combat vet to have symptoms of toxic stress --  they exist in people regardless of war or natural disaster, ethnicity, age, location, gender and are nearly epidemic in the world -- doctors Robert Anda and Vincent Filletti created a study of 17,000 people in the famous ACE study. They have come to know that we need to address this epidemic stress in the world at the community level -- and this has been mission of Ashlar since its inception: creating lay team of Narrative Arts Facilitators. 

My biggest undertaking for my own healing  was a large and complete memoir which gave the attention that story needs. Ritual and repetition. I made appointments with myself everyday to write and because in writing your life, you tell your story over and over (delete  the inaccuracies, as your memory sharpens and the trauma neural network is made story), you edit and work it.  And.  In the process, you work it out. 

 I have come to understand how and why writing the way I did it and the way I taught others works to heal. And I expanded these methods to include techniques  that exist in different cultures. Some I learned first hand from my Tlingit and African American friends (the use of ritual), and others from books written by of Mircea Eliade,  Marie Louise von Franz, Ellen Jane Harrison, Nor Hall and Lyn Cowan, Joseph Campbell and Carl Jung as well as my studies with an Eskimo Medicine man. These were the ways I learned about ritual with its many healing ingredients that I had been using instinctively in my workshops, classes and individual sessions. And it came to me as it has come to others, not because we are special but because we are human and this drive to tell the story is our human inheritance.  In many cultures the important stories were told repeatedly, redundantly, again and again. The less important became gossip.  Our stories are going to get told in one setting or another. Think about this next time you start telling a story.   So I say,for those important stories,  if you can't get to us then I hope you will find  a friend and/or another writer, an artist, or a story teller  who will Witness -- such an important function for all of us -- a friend who will listen deeply, who will receive your story and ride with it as you tell it, retrieving all the details you can -- exactly what the event was, or the condition, when, where, what and  how your body felt, what you decided about your life from this or these experiences. Tell and listen to yourself as you tell it.   Repeat it. And to those of you still suffering after years of silence, know that your story waits for you. It wants to be told.  And yes, it needs to be held in an environment of safety, trust and Deep Listening. Your life, like those of many others, could change dramatically for the better in telling that difficult, that challenging story.